I have a pride problem. I never ask for help, but I'm quick to offer a roof to those who don't have, food for those who are hungry, love to those who are abandoned . . . unfortunately, I have not run across many people like me. I am not looking for a loan because I am already in such debt that I can not see my way out right now. I am just looking for an angel (or a few angels). I am not looking for a sugar daddy because I am very much in love with my husband. We have 3 kids (6, 4, and 3). I am not anxious to share a lot of personal information, because the world is not all "innocent and sweet." I am just a struggling wife and mother, living in a double wide that I am having trouble trying to keep, but can't afford to lose. My husband began a job 2 weeks ago, 1 hr 20 mins from home. Pay is okay, but over half of it goes into gas. My job is 35 minutes from home. Because of my title, people assume I "got it made" when actually, I make less than $10/hr AND I am hourly AND I am restricted to 40 hours/wk. So, there is my short story. I hope someone who has the heart and the means will come across this post and just trust God that I am real. I know that my God will not put more on me than I can bear. I also believe it when He said I have not because I ask not.
I need a sugardaddy. Not the candy bar. Ok, that was just the first thing my fingers decided to type. It is not really true. I really justwant to relax for a minute and be taken care of for once. I believe in giving credit where credit is due. I deserve lots of credit right now. I am barely making ends meet. some of them are frayed very badly, but they are meeting, none-the-less. I miss having someone (over 4' tall) to come home to - to cook a nice dinner for and to inquire about my day . . . then cuddle up and sink into that cozy loved feeling. My financial circumstances, unfortunately, have led me to have very little time for myself and NO TIME for anyone/anything romantic. I miss that. Yes, I wish I had a stack of 100s dropped at my feet - right now, about $2000 would be fine. Yes, I wish I had the liberty of not HAVING to work. Moreover, I wish that I didn't have to subtract myself from my children so much.
My kids are ready to go back to school. What does that mean for me? Up at 5, bus stop at 6, work at 7, home by 6, dinner and homework and baths and reading and bed (for them by 9), house cleaned by 12, in bed by 12:45. WHEW. Blows my mind. Kids wanting to play ball, dance, and join scouts. $$? time?
Snack money? After school care? Weekend quality time? Christmas? Birthdays?
in response to Zen...Sure. I don't mind. It seems so hard to just talk to people these days. Everyone is so busy or depressed. Then, I hate to complain because when folks see you coming, that is what they expect. I wear a smile and noone knows the tears that come behind closed doors. I consider myself a strong person, but I am so close to the edge. Just praying to keep it together for the kids.
Well, I stumbled on this site. I have never seen or heard of it before, but I guess things happen for a reason. I am loaded with issues. I don't ask for pity, just some guidance and some help where the kindness of your heart leads you. I will probably (eventually) open up and spill the entire story, but for now, Cliff Notes. I have recently found myself to be a single mom due to my family and husband not getting along and escalating into a near fatality between a brother, father, and husband. I work 2 full time jobs which takes me away from (and leaves my mother to care for) my 6-, 5-, and 3 year old. I am falling behind on my bills - including my mortgage that I have struggled to pay on my own for the last 4 years since the husband has been out of work without being able to secure anything stable. I share my FS (which has been cut almost $300 since I picked up a second job to help with my bills) with my parents whom my kids pretty much LIVE with. I'm stressed, lonely, struggling . . . my kids' birthdays are in November, December, and February. Then there is Christmas. I'm in so much of a need. Well . . . ?
